Trip to Largo 2

The first one was on my phone and i was geting cranky~

So today I went to Largo... It wasn’t that great of a trip. My father drove me to Largo so I could get an MRI done on my arm, and we almost ended up in Miami. He had me call the office several times and they all give me the wrong directions then we decided to stop at the gas stations since everyone was giving me the wrong directions. We got to the office thanks to the people that worked at the two different gas stations. Then on our way back my dad kept being an ass. Such a great trip….

Trip to Largo

Omg please kill me! On this stupid trip to get my mri all i can say its that this it has been worst in my life....

Taking advantage of this fragile broken heart

-Softly sigh- Wondering why.... How can a man love me? I can’t seem to understand this… All I see is ugliness and all they see is something else. I have wonder why does he want to own me when he has two other that are not like me that are beautiful girls… -sigh- I am not the prettiest girl.

Why be near me? Why offer me to be yours and to obey you? Why would you want to take advantage of this heart? This poor heart that can’t find itself that has forgotten who it was and how to work. This is why I have been so depress, the why I’ve wanted to escape everything and hide.

Hide away from everyone and everything to crawl into a tiny little hole and live there forever and ever never wanting to come out never wanting to see you or anyone else. Sometimes I have wanted to be left alone, but you never leave me alone you are always there.

–Teary eyed- And for what? So you can tell me that we will never meet then after you break me then ask me if I want to really kneel for you in person? Seriously, Am I the only one out there for me instead of being you, yet you say you are looking out for me and that I make you feel all of these things, when you and I both know they are the lies that you feed my poor broken heart.

Kicked to the side for a man!

I believe that the worst feeling for one to feel is the one of being abandoned. I have never thought I would feel this way but I guess I was wrong. I have always been very loved by everyone, but lately seems that no one loves me, that I am a bother to them. I have hardly treated my friends harshly. When I have treated my friend harshly had been because they either deserve it or they are doing something that it’s completely stupid.

The only thing that has been bothering me the most has been that one of my friends my supposedly best friend/sister had gotten a Gorean Master on IMVU. When she told me I told her either me or that man and she said to me I was being unfair to her, but now she doesn’t even talk to me now she only talks to me when she is bored or her Master is not online. I believe she should have chosen him since she hardly even talks to me now and then it wouldn’t have been unfair. I even made the decision for her because I knew this was going to happen.

Why would a person want to leave her friend hanging the one that she saw as a sister for a man? Not like he was the last Master on gor. Also not that long ago she tells me that she was talking to him and that he has a sexy voice and o.m.g. sis and inside of me I was like if you only knew he is some ugly fat male that does nothing and very sensitive.

Why would a man that considers him-self a master feel so threaten by a girl that tells him stuff as she sees it? No sensitive man should be a Master because once you meet that girl that will tell you how she sees you. You will want to a. kill her or b. makes everyone hate her so she will be left alone, like it’s happening in my case, or better yet don’t become a Master if you are a sensitive man because you won’t be able to take on the girl that has more dominance than you.

Ugh Oger again!

Ok so this nasty stalker boy emailed my cousin again. In the email he tells her about how he saw me at work and that I was hiding my face from him. OMG I wanted to punch him in the face I wasn’t even hiding I was waiting for a C.S.M. to tell me where to go next. Yeah men are so smart. Anyways when she told me I wanted to die ugh I hate that boy I wish I would have been meaner when he was dating her then maybe he wouldn’t have cared about me nor how "good" I looked. I sometimes wish I could kill people and not get into trouble, but since I can get into trouble for that and risk my soul and my life I can't do that. All I can do is hope to get fired so when he comes to walmart he can't see my happy ass around.