So Excited!!!!

Oh my god finally summer is over! Woot!! And a new semester awaits me for college. I hope my classes wont turn around and kick my ass like they did last semester with my shoulder sugery hopefully I wont need surgery on my wrist. Yes my damn wrist hasnt been fixed yet -ish a sad panda-, but I have keept myself busy trying to do everything that I normaly do except if I feel pain I get to stop and take a rest for a bit. Also I have a boyfriend ^_^. hmmmmm -thinks about what else there is to say- Ummm i think that's all that has happend.

Some books I wanna get

So today I was browsing the borders online page and came across a couple of books that seem interesting to me.Here is a list: (Also some are drawing books others are cooking books the great majority is manga books and the others are romance novels.)

• Butterflies, Flowers

• Black Bird

• Black Butler

• Alice in the Country of Hearts

• Pride and Prejudice and Zombies

• Shinobi Life

• Stepping on Roses

• The Dark Hunters

• Bride of the Water God

• Kawaii Bento Boxes: Cute and Convenient Japanese Meals on the Go

• The Manga Cookbook

• Four-Eyed Prince

• Manga Moods

• The Darkest Passion

Falling part

My life is all falling to the floor into pieces. My fantasy world has been broken and trashed like a mirror crashed on the floor.

Bleh my life

Bleh, why does one’s life gets harder and harder? I need a freaking break from this crazy life Y^Y and be able to relax and breath; not be thinking about what’s my next step to get my freaking arm fixed (which has been taken almost what? 6 months! instead of doing everything together nooooo they take their sweet ass time.... And Also I am failing my classes very hard)... I seriously hate my manager right now freaking woman should have changed me from position when I asked her to, but of course not at walmart because they think they own your ass and you are their slave. -sigh- Now tomorrow I gotta call my lawyer and see what he recomends... Why me?

Changing Majors

Today my cousin and I were talking about me and how am I doing in school. We all agreed I am not suitable to be a doctor, so I and she went major searching for a new major for myself. I came across Anthropology, Foreign Studies, and/or Foreign Languages. I think Foreign Studies would be interesting and of course Foreign Languages together. I believe they would go hand in hand, but I am not sure yet with what to do. -sigh- Life is so hard sometimes when one is stressing so much.

Long day

Today was a kind of long day and I had no sleep last night. My cousin today had an interview for her new job, and she told me that it would mean a lot to her if I went with her today. I decided to go to Orlando to then come back to my town which was a long long trip. Then when I got home for a few min then I had to run to school to find out my class las week was canceled and my class today was shorten to go see some theater thingie. After that I came home with my cousin and we decieded to go for a stroll and talk about whats going on with our lifes and about my plan to move out, and since I feel like I am failing my classes and my mom already told me that I needed to move out if I fail this semester. I told her that I seriously didnt know where to start.

Post Surgery, Life, & Drama

It has been a few weeks after my surgery on my shoulder, and all I can say it’s "This sucks big time". My arm is not healed yet... Sadly then the doctor wants me to do physical therapy when it’s a ligament and I know it’s not healed yet. (You my dear reader know how you feel when your body isn't feeling right or when you had surgery and you feel that you are not ready yet.) I have been feeling this way for a while.



I'm very indecisive about this and I am open to suggestions The problem here is that I know I am failing my classes since I am not very able to attend to class all the time, and I know thanks to my surgery my grades have drop also I can't really write because I have a tear on my right wrist, thanks to that I can't move my wrist to write, and the motion of writing makes my whole arm hurt (I have tried to write). Other than that I have been having some drama with the Mother and nothing out of the ordinary.



I have been trying to get my drivers license and looking for a good job there’s gotta be something better than wal-mart. I know finding a job with this economy is hard but I am praying I get a job at a spa. This way with that kind of job I would be able to pay off my debt and credit cards.

SO I have decided to be a lolita

So yes I have decided to be a lolita now... How will I get my clothes god knows how Y^Y I guess I'll ask for money for my birthday and what not... Anyways I have also started sweing which I love to do I might take some fasion classes while I'm in college and have a minor in fashion or something Idk yet. Anyways I have to get my surgery done soon Y^Y Im so nervous this is all so crazy.

Trip to Largo 2

The first one was on my phone and i was geting cranky~

So today I went to Largo... It wasn’t that great of a trip. My father drove me to Largo so I could get an MRI done on my arm, and we almost ended up in Miami. He had me call the office several times and they all give me the wrong directions then we decided to stop at the gas stations since everyone was giving me the wrong directions. We got to the office thanks to the people that worked at the two different gas stations. Then on our way back my dad kept being an ass. Such a great trip….

Trip to Largo

Omg please kill me! On this stupid trip to get my mri all i can say its that this it has been worst in my life....

Taking advantage of this fragile broken heart

-Softly sigh- Wondering why.... How can a man love me? I can’t seem to understand this… All I see is ugliness and all they see is something else. I have wonder why does he want to own me when he has two other that are not like me that are beautiful girls… -sigh- I am not the prettiest girl.

Why be near me? Why offer me to be yours and to obey you? Why would you want to take advantage of this heart? This poor heart that can’t find itself that has forgotten who it was and how to work. This is why I have been so depress, the why I’ve wanted to escape everything and hide.

Hide away from everyone and everything to crawl into a tiny little hole and live there forever and ever never wanting to come out never wanting to see you or anyone else. Sometimes I have wanted to be left alone, but you never leave me alone you are always there.

–Teary eyed- And for what? So you can tell me that we will never meet then after you break me then ask me if I want to really kneel for you in person? Seriously, Am I the only one out there for me instead of being you, yet you say you are looking out for me and that I make you feel all of these things, when you and I both know they are the lies that you feed my poor broken heart.

Kicked to the side for a man!

I believe that the worst feeling for one to feel is the one of being abandoned. I have never thought I would feel this way but I guess I was wrong. I have always been very loved by everyone, but lately seems that no one loves me, that I am a bother to them. I have hardly treated my friends harshly. When I have treated my friend harshly had been because they either deserve it or they are doing something that it’s completely stupid.

The only thing that has been bothering me the most has been that one of my friends my supposedly best friend/sister had gotten a Gorean Master on IMVU. When she told me I told her either me or that man and she said to me I was being unfair to her, but now she doesn’t even talk to me now she only talks to me when she is bored or her Master is not online. I believe she should have chosen him since she hardly even talks to me now and then it wouldn’t have been unfair. I even made the decision for her because I knew this was going to happen.

Why would a person want to leave her friend hanging the one that she saw as a sister for a man? Not like he was the last Master on gor. Also not that long ago she tells me that she was talking to him and that he has a sexy voice and o.m.g. sis and inside of me I was like if you only knew he is some ugly fat male that does nothing and very sensitive.

Why would a man that considers him-self a master feel so threaten by a girl that tells him stuff as she sees it? No sensitive man should be a Master because once you meet that girl that will tell you how she sees you. You will want to a. kill her or b. makes everyone hate her so she will be left alone, like it’s happening in my case, or better yet don’t become a Master if you are a sensitive man because you won’t be able to take on the girl that has more dominance than you.

Ugh Oger again!

Ok so this nasty stalker boy emailed my cousin again. In the email he tells her about how he saw me at work and that I was hiding my face from him. OMG I wanted to punch him in the face I wasn’t even hiding I was waiting for a C.S.M. to tell me where to go next. Yeah men are so smart. Anyways when she told me I wanted to die ugh I hate that boy I wish I would have been meaner when he was dating her then maybe he wouldn’t have cared about me nor how "good" I looked. I sometimes wish I could kill people and not get into trouble, but since I can get into trouble for that and risk my soul and my life I can't do that. All I can do is hope to get fired so when he comes to walmart he can't see my happy ass around.

Being "fat"

So today, my male parental unit and I were watching a movie when the female parental unit came to the living room and says to my male parental unit something about clothes. I was ignoring them talk until I heard her say "I'm so fat." I was like hold up rewind and play 'She is fat??' So I tell her "You are not fat mom so stop being so dramatic." And she started bitching about how fat she was and that since she isn’t a size 0 she is fat. I wanted to be like when you reach 14 then we can talk about being fat. Ugh I hate when skinny bitches say they are fat because they are not when you reach those double digits then and have fat rolls then you can bitch, whine, and moan about being fat, till then you may not come to a chubby girl and tell her you are fat. Even if you are on the double digit and you don’t have fat rolls you can’t complain about being fat once you have muffing top and fat rolls then you can start complaining. SO!! You skinny ladies out there don’t go to your chubby friends and bitch, whine, and moan about you being fat!

OGER

Ok so these past few days I have been talking to my cousin and she tells me that her ex bf likes me -.- yes he is hedious looking!!!!! I was like wtf so then yesterday she told me that he emailed her and told her that "Your cousin was looking good." When she told me this I wanted to rip that ugly bastard apart. So today I am at work doing my job as a door greeter (I know horrible work and so hard but anyways its bc I am on light duty.) Then I recived a texted message and when I checked I see its from my cousin so I open it and it read. "Jorge emailed me that he is going to walmart so............ Watch out lol" Yes I was not amused by it. So I was feeling uberly paranoid I was looking all kinds of rough too.( >.< he likes that he is an ass and has bad taste in ghetto women. ) So I did my job I didnt see him for a few hours so I was feeling way better and thought "YAY I DON'T HAVE TO SEE OGER." Then when I returned to the board to know where to go I see his stupid ass in the little "Pimp movile from walmart" <--- LMAO!!! anyways passing by me with a smirk I wanted to punch him in the face when I saw him >.< I hate some guys

Damn work

-sigh- So today my Manager "Bitch" told me that I need to make a plan so I can keep my job. She said I have been missing too much work. I guess that at Hell-mart they dont care about their employees. Of course I got hurt at work and I have been kida not paying attention at stuff as I get my hours since I am in pain and I can't seem to concentrate on anything else but that. SO These ppl think that I am missing work because I want to and my  Manager "Bitch" always treats me like shit and today she was all calling me boo boo and shit like that I was so in shock that a person can change like that. Like seriously why do ppl at these big places treat their empolyees like crap and then treat them good when they are introuble it makes no sence. Anyways moving on, so yes I might lose my job because I got hurt at work and miss read the schedule. All because I am human and not a robot

First week of school

Today was my first week of school. So far I have everything going well and still doing my homework >.> I am taking my break. My classes seem to be very easy so far and my teachers all are very nice. >.< I need to post more often too lol

Horrible Night

Why is this always happening to me?
I don't understand why guy friends freak out when their female friends tell them "I love you"? This doesnt mean that they love the man as a man it means they love the guy friend as their friend, buddy, idk what else to call it. This is so fucked up.

Confusion~

So i like it how guys confuse the whole friends with bebefits shit..... They apparently dont understand the whole concept of it like if a girl likesyou she wil date you not look around for an excuse for not talking to you. Serousy she will make it happen so ya'll stop getting shit confused and twisted when it happens it happesn and it it doesnt well its better for you. Life is like the sea full of fishes and if one doesnt want you another will want you so keep an eye out for that one special mermaid that will steal your heart away

Day 3

So here i am on day 3 of the new year....so far people give me shit about me not wanting to be on imvu anymore... Anyways im glad i am out of that as if i need imvu drama for this new year i need to focus on the things that are most important to me like school, working on my self, and other stuff that need more attention than just being online chatting with people

NEW YEARS!!!!! WOOOT

Well I guess it wasn't that bad after all... after a few drinks and crazy dancing videos its was not as bad as last year. Just wished people happy new years and that they had a blessed new years, thats about it for my new years.

Happy New Years To Me~